| Sunday February 26th; 3pm EST (NYC) |
[Sunday
February 26th, 2012 at 3:31pm] |
Private; Readable by Friends/SiblingsI think something's wrong with Dad.
I don't really have an explanation, but I went home for a short visit after I left New York and something just seemed.. off. Mom says he's fine and that I shouldn't worry, but.. I felt like there was something she wasn't telling me.
Tell me I'm just being crazy or paranoid or whatever. /Private
I like visited my family a lot, but I'm glad to be back in Atlanta. So much WARMER here!
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| Sunday February 5th; 11am EST (NYC) |
[Sunday
February 5th, 2012 at 11:38am] |
I forgot how much I LOVE New York! Benny had to come up for work, so I decided it was a good time to visit my favorite brothers! Ha! I can say that without favoritism because they ALL LIVE HERE.
Anyway, I'm having such a good time up here! I really don't want to go home! Why did I decide college was a good idea? I know.. education and all, but it would be nice to just be able to see my family whenever I wanted. I'm just saying.
I really can't believe how BIG Taylor has gotten. And Dari's little baby belly is kind of adorable. She and Jeremy might make me want to GAG sometimes, but I'm glad they're happy and I can't wait for their new baby to be born!
JSYAK, Taylor has a wicked strong grip. And she likes to grab my hair. Ouch.
Private to JeremyDear big brother,
I really want waffles.
Love, Izzy /Private
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| Tuesday October 18th; 7pm EST (ATL) |
[Tuesday
October 18th, 2011 at 7:54am] |
I don't know what is up with my boyfriend lately, but I swear he has more energy than I do! It's insane! He's totally wearing me out! I don't really mind, though! He's totally worth a little sleep deprivation.
I can't believe how close the holidays are getting. Only 68 shopping days left before Christmas! I'd better get a move on!
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| Sunday May 15th; Noonish EST (NYC) |
[Sunday
May 15th, 2011 at 12:16am] |
Fuck. Shit. Damn.
Private to Close Friends & Family (not ben)Crap. I forgot Ben's birthday. Not only did I forget, but I left town. ON HIS BIRTHDAY. What the hell is wrong with me?
He's gotta be pissed. I would be SO pissed if I was him. /Private
Private to BennyBenny, I am so, so sorry! I swear I'll make it up to you. Please don't hate me /Private
I love New York. It would be better if my Benny was here, but it's so great to be around friends and family up here.
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| Monday January 17th; 2pm EST |
[Monday
January 17th, 2011 at 3:41pm] |
[Private to Close friends/family; Not Melia Self]I am a horrible person. I am, like, the worst person in the entire world, because I am jealous of Melia right now. I am jealous because he father is still alive and even if he doesn't wake up, she has a chance to say goodbye. She has time to.. I don't even know. She doesn't have someone just suddenly telling her "hey, your dad is dead."
That's insane, right? Her father is lying in a hospital bed hooked up to a bunch of machines and he might not ever come out of it and I'm thinking about how lucky she is. /Private
I didn't go to class today. I know. I know. You can all yell at me later. Melia's dad is in the hospital and I wanted to be there for her.
[Private to Melia]Hey, you know I'm here, right? If you want to talk or scream or cry or.. anything, I'm here. I know this really, really sucks, but I promise you're going to be okay. even if /Private
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| Sunday October 10; 10pm EST |
[Sunday
October 10th, 2010 at 10:38pm] |
Ugh. Sunday nights. Don't you hate that feeling on Sunday nights where you know the weekend is over and you have to go to bed so you can get up for class.
I miss summer vacation. It went by WAY too fast!
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| Wednesday July 21; 3pm EST |
[Wednesday
July 21st, 2010 at 10:52pm] |
So... I have a job. I know I didn't really need a job, but Ben is doing so many hours with his internship and without classes to keep me busy, I really haven't had a lot to do an maybe he'll let me help with the bills if it's not Dad's money so he won't have to work so hard
Anyway, I'm lifeguarding at one of the local pools, just down the street from out apartment, really, and it's actually a lot of fun. I would hardly even call it working, I'm having such a good time just hanging out with the other lifeguards. Chris and Isaac are always cracking me up with all their jokes and Christy is taking this really great kickboxing class that she's started dragging me to. It's nice to finally make some of my own friends here
Benny, we were thinking of going out for some dinner and stuff tonight. Do you want to come?
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| Monday May 24 | 2pm EST (Atlanta) |
[Monday
May 24th, 2010 at 2:27pm] |
Being away from Ben is going to suck, but I'm really excited to be heading home for a little while. I won't be staying in Chicago for the whole break, of course, since Ben has his internship here in Atlanta, but I'm looking forward to spending some time with Mom and Dad and Kenny and Annie and the twins and all.
Is it me or did it feel like the year went by fast? I officially finished my first year of college, though! I even managed to pass all of my classes, somehow.
Clearly, this is something that needs celebrating. Who wants to go out and party?
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| Thursday March 11; 11:45am EST (NYC) |
[Thursday
March 11th, 2010 at 12:39pm] |
OMGOSH, NEW YORK WAS AMAZING!!!
I'm glad to be on my way home to my Benny, but I had a really great time in New York! My new little niece is adorable and I got to play with Annie and see the twins and Mom and Dad and my brothers and Remy and Melia! So. Much. Fun!!!
Mom made this awesome dinner last night, too. SO good!
NEW YORK, I WILL MISS YOU!! MELIA, COME TO ATLANTA SOON, OKAY? WE CAN GO TO SIX FLAGS!
I really wish next week could be Spring Break, too, so I could go to Disneyland with Ollie and Melia. :( TAKE LOTS OF PICTURES AND SAY HI TO MICKEY FOR ME, OKAY?
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| Thursday February 11; 4:29pm EST (Atlanta) |
[Thursday
February 11th, 2010 at 3:28pm] |
ONE WEEK UNTIL MY BIRTHDAY, OMG! I can't wait! Mom and Dad are coming down and everything!
I want to go dancing tonight! Does anyone want to go dancing?
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| Thursday February 4; 1:18am EST (Atlanta) |
[Thursday
February 4th, 2010 at 1:16am] |
ATTENTION PARTY PEOPLE!
MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 14 DAYS! TWO WEEKS!
HOW EXCITING IS THAT?
I'm going to have a party. Well, maybe on the weekend after so that Benny doesn't have to get up stupidly early the next day and people can maybe come from out of town. But THERE WILL BE A PARTY!
I know I should be sleeping but I'm all hyper and I can't sleep! :( I should go wear myself out, I guess!
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| Friday January 15, 3:54pm EST (Atlanta) |
[Sunday
January 17th, 2010 at 10:33pm] |
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It's hard to be back at school after so much time at home with the family. I got a little bit spoiled, having no much time in Chicago, though I have to admit the weather in Atlanta is a little nicer.
There was SNOW, though! Can you believe is snowed in Atlanta? Something about that is just not right!
I really wish Ben didn't work so much. I come home from class and I'm so bored because he's still at work. It sucks. I'm glad to be here with him, but it sucks how much I miss him when we live together.
My newest little siblings are absolutely perfect by the way. It was nice to get to spend more than a few days with them.
Ben, what do you want for dinner tonight? I was thinking of getting us some takeout or something.
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| Saturday November 14; 1:36pm EST |
[Saturday
November 14th, 2009 at 10:36am] |
It seems my boyfriend will staying in Atlanta for Thanksgiving I should stay with him, shouldn't I? I want to see Mom and Dad and everyone, though, because he has to work. This means I will be flying home solo unless there's anyone else heading home at the same time.
Ben, are you sure I can't buy you a ticket home? I hate the idea of you being here alone for Thanksgiving.
Benny, let's go out and do something today? Maybe we could go to the coke museum and get all sugared up! I promise to reward Or we go could somewhere else. I just want to take advantage of you being.. not at work!
[Private to Pitts/Sawyers/etc]
Are we taking any bets on whether Mom goes into labor right in the middle of Thanksgiving dinner?
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| Thursday July 9; 4:45PM EST |
[Friday
July 10th, 2009 at 12:41am] |
I think maybe the Atlanta heat has made me temporarily insane.
I cut my hair today. Like... a lot of it. It's barely to my shoulders now and I got it highlighted a little, too. I felt almost like a girl when I was having it done and I do think it's cute, but... oh my gosh, my hair! I don't know what I was thinking. I mean, it does feel better in the heat, but I haven't had more than a trim since I was, like, 5. It feels weird. I keep touching it and.. I swear, it feels like I just randomly lost five pounds or something.
( picture! )
In other news, we're leaving for Venice tomorrow and I think I'm almost packed. I'm really glad Ben agreed to come with me. I'm really excited to see everyone and it's nice knowing I won't have to miss Ben while I'm spending time with my family.
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| Sunday, June 7, 2009: 5PM CST |
[Sunday
June 7th, 2009 at 1:13am] |
WOOOOOOOOO WE'RE GRADUATED!!!!
Amazing, isn't it? It feels weird, but pretty awesome, too!
Especially the part where we will be CELEBRATING. Who doesn't love a good party?
I'm going to focus on that and not the fact that I have to tell everyone goodbye in less than a week. Someone tell me I'm not insane for doing this.
I still can't believe I'm a high school graduate. I guess that means I'm supposed to start acting like a grown up or something.
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| Monday June 1; 9:08pm CST |
[Tuesday
June 2nd, 2009 at 12:07am] |
Omgosh! Planning a party is hard work! Everything's just about done, though, I think! It's going to be on Sunday, starting after graduation out at our lake house. Make sure you bring your bathing suits and everything!
I can't believe we're really GRADUATING! OMGOSH! And then we'll be leaving. I don't know whether to be excited or nervous about Atlanta. I guess I'm kind of both. It's so weird.
Granted, with my grades, there's still a chance they're going to say "hahahaha, JK not you!" I don't even know if there's a point to going to college. I mean, it's not like I'm really into the studying or anything.
I don't know. I know I'm supposed to have this whole future thing figured out now, but I really, really don't.
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| Tuesday May 5; 8:50am CST |
[Tuesday
May 5th, 2009 at 9:50am] |
I am beyond exhausted at the moment. I had an amazing weekend, but sleep definitely wasn't a major factor in it and I feel like if I could just sleep for the next week or so, that would be really great!
[Private to herself; Readable by Krysta]
I'm not longer a.. Ben and I had sex the morning after prom. It still feels a little surreal and had we not also done it several times since then, I might think I had dreamed the whole thing. I wasn't planning on it, but it just sort of happened and I'm definitely not sorry we did. Words can't describe how amazing it was. I feel more connected to him than ever now. I honestly don't know what I've been afraid of before, why I haven't done this sooner, but I guess that hardly matters now. Mom and Dari were right. I guess I'm glad I let them talk me into the pill now.
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[assume that she has already spoken to the parental units about the following]
I'm going to be be spending my summer in Atlanta with Ben. Well, aside from dragging him on vacation with my family in July, I am. I've been over it again and again in my mind and I think this is the only way I'm ever going to make a real decision. I love New York and I want to be close to my brothers, but I love Ben, too. I think I have to see if I can be happy in Atlanta before I can make any decisions. It's too bad he won't let me help him pay for an apartment. We could get something really nice. I am looking forward to it. It's going to be quite the adventure. I hate that I have to leave everyone. I'm going to miss them so much.
[Private to Ben]
I know you have to work, but I hear it's Cindo de Mayo and I was thinking that we should celebrate. I could sneak over later? Or you could come here. We can have Mexican! And sex. More sex. It's been too long. I think I'm addicted to you. I bet I can even snag us a little tequila. What do you say?
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| Sunday April 12; 7:47PM CST |
[Sunday
April 12th, 2009 at 7:46pm] |
I've been having a really good weekend! Dari and Jeremy came home yesterday and they brought the girl they're adopting - Remy - home to meet everyone. We all had dinner together and then I dragged her out to this party. It was a lot of fun it sucks that my boyfriend has a job and Ben even met us after he got done working! Anyway, thanks Trick and Ethan and everyone for helping me keep her entertained! I'm not sure how I feel about her, but she's important to Jeremy and Dari, so I want her to like me
I have to admit that watching Annie hunt for Easter Eggs was kind of fun. She kind of sucked at it, of course, but she's only, like, two, so you really can't expect her to be an expert or anything, yet.
Dinner was SO good, too. I'm completely stuffed. Seriously, I don't think I can move. I think I might just sit here in the den and watch a movie or something. Does anyone want to join me? Mom, Dad? Remy? Dari, Jeremy? Ben, you are welcome to come over and hang out with us, too, if you want!
Kenny should have been here. I hate that he's
Ugh. He doesn't care about us. I need to have the same attitude about him.
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| Friday April 10; 9:10pm CST |
[Friday
April 10th, 2009 at 10:10pm] |
How lucky am I?
Dad Richard Who cares if he gets Dad said I can have a big party for graduation! I can do it at home or at the lake house and... how cool is that?!? I didn't actually expect him to say yes!
Now the question is... which house? And Krys, you're going to help me plan and everything, right?
I'm REALLY excited!!! :D
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| Monday April 6; 9:59PM |
[Monday
April 6th, 2009 at 9:58pm] |
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He's been gone over a month.
I hate it. I know Mom is still upset. Sure, she knows where she is and she tries really hard to act like she's fine with him being off in New York with Bry, but.. every once in a while she gets this look and I know she's not okay. She wants to go see him, I think. I heard her talking on the phone the other day - to Bry, I think. I guess he talked her out of it or something.
It's my fault. If it wasn't for me, Dad would still be here and Kenny would be happy like he used to be. I had to get so excited over that stupid gift and I had to.. just not care that he didn't approve. I had to yell and scream at him and have a fit when he said I couldn't accept it. He'd still be here if I wasn't such a brat.
I don't know why he hates Mom and Richard so much. Doesn't he understand it's my fault? He should be hating me.
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It's too quiet around here these days. I'm not sure I like it. Shane was here for his break and then Maddie was here for a few days and it wasn't even completely horrible, I guess, but now it's all quiet again. Dari and Jeremy are visiting later this week, though! And they're bringing... I guess she's, like, my NIECE. How weird is that? I'm going to have a niece who is only a couple of years younger than me. SO weird. It'll be cool to meet her, though. And nice to have some more people in the house for a few days.
I can't believe it's April. I can't believe I'm graduating in two months. It's going too fast. I want to just stay a kid forever. I don't want Ben to leave.
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| Monday March 2; 6:45PM CST |
[Tuesday
March 3rd, 2009 at 9:09am] |
They're fighting again. I hate it when they fight.
[private: readable by Ben]
I don't understand why he has to be like this. I know he misses Dad, but.. we all do. I miss him. But he shouldn't take it out on them. It's not their fault. It's mine. I heard he hit Katherine. She's practically the only person at school who even talks to him and he HIT her. I mean, I heard she slept with Garrett and all, but still. I can't believe he'd actually hit her.
I think I'm going to hide in my room for awhile.
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[private to katherine]
How are you feeling? Did you really sleep wi
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| Saturday February 21; 9pm CST |
[Saturday
February 21st, 2009 at 10:49pm] |
[Dad Richard]
I was thinking maybe I should look at schools in Atlanta. Just in case. I know she hates ME, but Do you think maybe we could go down there sometime soon? You could see Maddie! And.. we could look at some schools or something?
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| Friday, February 18, 10pm CST (backdated) |
[Saturday
February 21st, 2009 at 11:23am] |
Happy Birthday to meeeeeeee! It's been a pretty good one! Mom and Dad Richard took us all out to this amazing dinner aaaaand I got all kinds of awesome things, including this totally awesome new laptop!
Have you ever seen anything more beautiful? It'll be great for college next year!
Speaking of which, I think I am looking at NYU or University of Chicago. And I think I'm going to look at some schools in Georgia, just in case. I mean, I'm still not sure what I want to do I really think I want to go to NYU, but I don't want to upset Benny. I'm pretty sure that Georgia Tech would make me want to blow my brains out, but maybe I could check into Georgia State or something. I don't know.
I don't even know what I want to major in or anything.
I really liked NYU when Dari showed me around. I really wish going there wouldn't put me even further away from Ben.
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[Wednesday
February 11th, 2009 at 8:36pm] |
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Oh, for fuck's sake.
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